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recently, the thought of escaping has constantly come into my mind…
this is not the first time, and i am rather certain that it isnt going to be the last…
since I graduated, whenever I face the possibility of failing or challenges that I’m fearful of… the first thought that pops into my mind is to, well, turn and run away from it or simply calling it quit.
it happened when I was doing advertising, it happened this year with teaching (thanks goodness for the 3 years bond) , it happens every single time, I fought with K, and now it’s happening again.
actually, i don’t exactly hate the job thou i still can’t see myself doing what im supposed to do in 3 months time. nor do I dislike the pple I’m working with. in fact, I adore some of these folks. but i just so absolutely loath the feeling of losing. it irks me so ever frequently that it’s starting to make me lose my sleep, and brings out the uglier side of me. thou, as a matter of fact, I very much owe my honours to this competitive streak of mine. it has somehow become a tad unbearable for me lately
silly, i know. and the fact that Im getting one step closer to the 30s, i should be mature enough to be less conscious abt others, and focus on my battle, using my competitive streak as a motivation instead of a deterrent, and as mel said, face the darn reality.
easier said than done.
no matter what, im not gonna quit without putting up a good fight. i owe myself that little respect
one major advantage of getting a new job is getting the legitimate reason to shop not that i really need one… even my mother in law told me almost immediately it’s time for more shopping (haha she knows that i shop even when there’s no occasion to) when we told her abt the new job.
so the last 2 weeks i’ve been scouting the major malls for appropriate wkwear. to my dismay, the trips have been quite fruitless. just yesterday, I spent 2 hrs combing haji lane and bugis junction without buying a single thing.
oh why oh why can’t they bring in the stylish and affordable h & m and asos from uk. why can’t they have less frilly less satin less chiffon looking tops… why can’t they have simple, classic and comfort tops hanging in their stores.
oh why?
after close to 3 months of resting at home and countless of application emails sent out… I finally got myself a job.
a job that I was dying to have when I was just a fresh uni grad… and after so long finally convinced myself that i wasn’t just cut out for it. Yet this is the one that I have the least trouble applying for..applied on mon morning, got invitation for interview in the same aftn, went for interview 2 days later, got shortlisted at the end of it, went thru a test on fri for formality sake, got the offer on 2 days later. got this happened within a week or so. interestingly, i wasn’t as keen as I was before. before i left my previous job, I was all set to step into the civil sector, thinking that I should be able to do well in it. unfortunately, it wasn’t quite like what i’ve imagined. nothing quite excites me whenever I went for the job briefing during the interviews, i kept thinking that this won’t be something that I will like to do for the rest of my life, at least not the next 5 years or so. to the point that I can’t answer pple’s question, what kind of job are you looking for? yes, what exactly am i looking for? it’s scary coz I don’t have the answer to that question myself. and just today, I got another offer for an interview, and I actually started to ponder, have i made the right choice in taking up the previous offer? did i take it up because im sick of staying at home? did i just grab the job as a buoy? i’m left with a week to find out. wish me luck.
